Good morning everyone,
What a beautiful Saturday it is here! The sun came through and kissed at my windows this morning – I couldn’t resist but to let it inside while I made tea for my partner and I. Even my cat sat up on the windowsill in the kitchen to warm up his back from the warmth of the sun, having a whack at the dangling tea strainer as it was drying on the drying rack.
My partner are slowly waking up to the morning show on telly before we go out to do some birthday shopping – it’s my birthday this coming Thursday! So, I thought while I have some down time I would sit and talk to you all about a topic that has been on my mind all week.
When I was made redundant in Sydney before we left to come here to Melbourne, I spent every day – all day here on DaySixtyFive. It became what I like to think my full time job. I spent everyday planning what I would do next, I planned out scheduling and I was coming up with fantastic ideas everyday on what I wanted to do. I enjoy DaySixtyFive so much, and when we came here to Melbourne we started our money making work in the work force. As soon as I got into my job now, I found less and less time to sit here and enjoy what I love doing so much – writing. I haven’t been able to sit down and write to you all, I haven’t been able to plan and to come up with new topics to write about. It feels like you lose a part of you.
I sat down with wine last night and spoke with my partner about how I truly feel. Coming up to it being my birthday, I feel like you always have that moment of doom before your birthday. Where you take a step back and look what what you spent the last year doing, comparing it to what you feel like you should be doing – to seeing what you can realistically actually be doing. For me, that isn’t a lot. My dream is to become a mother, to write on DaySixtyFive for a living and to be the best wife that I can be. That’s my dream, that’s my goal.
It’s a goal that we financially cannot support. In this day and age, you need a double income from both parties. You can’t survive off of one income. If you want to earn money from writing, you need to have a stable source of visits and supporters and you need to dedicate your days to it entirely. It comes your job. You can’t multitask, I can’t do the job I’m doing now and dedicate as much as I would like to into DaySixtyFive because it is actually a job writing. It isn’t easy, it’s time consuming and you need to produce quality content.
It’s hard because writing is what I want to do. There is nothing else that I would like to do in life. When I look at my career timeline, I haven’t found anything that I would like to do. I haven’t been one of those people who grow up knowing what they want to do with themselves, or when finishing education having a pathway that I would like to follow. I’ve always enjoyed writing, creating good content that makes people happy and being a voice. There has never been anything that has gelled with me, and it’s upsetting because I can’t follow my dream and give myself the shot that I would like to.
It saddens me that we all have our own dreams, we all have our passions and the things that we are fantastic at – yet we cannot give ourselves the true kick that we need because of money and the pressure to be in the work force. You can’t follow your dreams or your passions without being frowned upon. We don’t have to follow the herd, you can be the black sheep and be the happiest out of them all. I would be blessed to not blend in with the rest.
Anyway, that’s just some thoughts. Chasing your dreams is important, you need to adapt and somehow work your way into being able to chase your dreams while still kicking on. Multitasking is the greatest gift that we have the ability to have. I am not going to give up on my dream of DaySixtyFive, I will give it everything that I have. The best thing that you can do is to try your best, I’ve always been a huge believer in trying your best and giving yourself all the time in the world. If you can support yourself mentally and believe that you can achieve your dreams, you’re already halfway there.
It will work out.