I hope we are all going well today! Happy Monday to you all.
This morning, I woke up pissed off. What started it? I was running late because my clothes were wet from being put in the washing machine and my makeup table was annoying me. Is this a normal thing to get blood boiling, hands shaking and voice breaking mad? No, but this is my life and has been nonstop when I have been on birth control.
When I started taking birth control, I thought it was great. I was like, hell yeah no normal periods! But, no, this isn’t normal.
Of course there are the positives that if you are in a long term monogamous relationship you can have unprotected sex, you get lighter/shorter periods, skin looks great – whatever.
This is what society expects from women. Men are fertile 100% of the time, all around the clock. Women are only fertile when they are ovulating. Who gets put onto birth control? Women. Men can have the time of their lives in sex, do whatever they want and they don’t have to worry about the responsibility of supporting a child. While women have to fill their bodies up with scientifically created hormones to stop themselves from menstruating (Which is what us beautiful women do! If you haven’t heard, it’s natural! That’s life!) because they don’t want to have children themselves.
The chemical imbalance is disturbing. There is no information out there about what birth control actually does to your mental health.
I’m all over the place – I’m angry, like crazily angry at the smallest things. I want to break things. Allllll of the things. I want to cry, I have moments of pure sadness for no reason out of no where. My anxiety has sky rocketed and I just cannot put my finger on what it is. It’s entirely hormonal, it’s insane.
I have addressed this with doctors prior to swapping pills (which I have done numerous times) and they have nothing to say to me.
There’s no recognition or support for women out there. Yet I go online to things like Reddit or whatever and there’s so many people relating to how I feel. Why aren’t doctors helping spreading this awareness?
If I was aware that there was this many problems with birth control, I would not be on it. I wouldn’t touch it.
It’s unfair the amount of expectation that there is on women to be on birth control, when really we should be encouraging one another as women to know our bodies and respect our bodies and their natural balances, while figuring out alternative contraceptive measures that include your partner as a partnership. It isn’t fair to expect the woman to pull the weight of contraception. It takes two to make another life form, not one.
That’s all for this topic folks, I’m going back to my tea now.