If I tell you exactly where you are right now and what has/is happening in your life, you would become far too impatient and try to force it to happen too quickly.That would result in none of this happening! It would wreck everything. So, unfortunately you will be getting no spoilers here.
All that I can say is, you will often find yourself looking back on when you would be woken up for school with a warm cup of coffee (which was made just the way you like it) by papa bear every morning. Treasure every sip while you can, because as you get older you end up doing these things yourself.
I don’t want you to change who you are because being who you are got us where we are today. The road was/will be tough for you, but smooth sea never makes a skilled sailor. It is worth it, what you go through is absolutely worth the reward at the finish line but even then we aren’t done yet. We are only at the beginning.
People are going to suck, but that is life. Embrace it. You aren’t as horrible of a person as you think you are, you do treat our mother terrible though. Be kinder to her.
It may be hard for you to believe but you do age. It does happen, I know – unbelievable. High school does actually end. You may not believe there is an end to it all, but life goes on whether you like it or not.
You will like it.