It’s been a while since I’ve sat down and written about how things are going at the moment. I love writing posts like these because it feels like I’m Carrie Bradshaw sitting by her apartment window with her legs up on her seat, being sensual behind the keyboard with a lit cigarette.
Unfortunately, it’s incredibly smokey outside from the Australian bush fires so there are no windows open, I don’t smoke and I’m not sitting sensually I’m too pregnant for that life. Regardless, let’s just go with the Carrie Bradshaw image, shall we?
So where should I begin? This is going to be a long post, I apologise in advance.
Well, January has been an interesting ride so far. We are just over two weeks into January and I have been incredibly stressed already. Yay, adult life.
My real estate emailed us a few days ago saying that my landlord is scheduling a valuation on the rental property. My husband and I are paranoid that they are going to be looking into selling the property, which means that they will be having open inspections, private walk-through with potential buyers, who knows what, as regular as they want. They can do this legally as much as they want as long as they have given 24 hour notice to us as tenants. So much for quiet living when you rent, eh?
The thing that makes us so nervous about that potential outcome is the fact I am a popping balloon right now. In the coming weeks I will be in labour and have a beautiful newborn. We don’t want our newborn in that situation, let alone try to keep a tidy house continually while trying to navigate life with a newborn in our lives. It will be beyond stressful.
We have 9 more months left of renting here, so we will just have to tough out whatever happens.
My brother works in real estate, and he suggests that it looks like my landlord may just be looking at refinancing so that they can purchase another property. It is a buyers market right now, not a sellers market. They would be silly to refinance to just sell the property anyway, so let’s just cross our toes and fingers that is all that it is and there is nothing underlying on the way. If there is, we will just have to deal with it and handle the wave as it comes and goes.
I’m just trying to remind myself that there is no point worrying about something that hasn’t/won’t happen yet.
Buying a house…
We would love to buy a house but it is just so damn expensive.
The cost of living is outrageous at the moment, I don’t think it is just Australia that this is happening to but it is unbelievable how you are expected to climb the ladder through the world at the moment.
Education, health, housing, bills – you name it, all of it is so expensive. It just continues to get more expensive as the years go on.
In Australia, salaries haven’t had an increase in so long. Everything is getting more expensive around us yet the wages aren’t adjusting. It grinds my gears how the government expects society to have a quality of life these days.
My husband and I are going to a bank next Friday before our midwife appointment to go over our savings and finances, just to see if we can get a plan in the works or discuss our options with moving forward in the hopes of being able to buy a house one day.
We haven’t sat down with a bank to go over our current savings goals and plans, so hopefully it will be beneficial to us.
The bush fires and climate change…
The bush fires in Australia have been unbelievable. The way our politicians have handled the situation is just absolutely disgusting. I cannot believe we have such morons in charge, unfortunately majority of the world is only hearing about Scott Morrison when in reality it is literally everyone in the Liberal government.
They are all utter wankers, so is anyone that has an insane amount of money that somehow gets them a say in what happens to the country. Not only in our newspapers, but in supporting disgusting agendas like Adani.
It is just absolutely ridiculous that they are so driven by power, money and greed. They think that if they throw money at the situation, it will go away. Unfortunately climate change doesn’t care about money.
Dont get me started on the denial that our entire government has when it comes to climate change. It is worrying how many people in Australia, citizens that is, that believe the words that the government can spin. How can people be so blind to climate change?
I have been going a bit stir crazy being locked up inside the house the last few days. I can’t open the windows as the air quality outside is hazardous. Yes, hazardous. We are having warnings about being outside for any period of time, especially those with respiratory issues or pregnant women aka myself.
I have all the windows and doors closed to the house and I haven’t been able to properly go outside for days now. It feels like the end of the world, when you look outside you can barely see across the road. I can’t see any of the trees in the distance from how thick the smoke is.
The sun is either non existent from being entirely blocked by smoke, or it is this horrible deep red and it just looks like the world is about to end. I miss being able to open the windows to the house, go outside for a walk, or just even be able to wake up to the sunshine.
In a few weeks I am due to give birth, as I keep mentioning in many of my posts. Sorry for the pregnancy rambles, readers.
Bub isn’t in the right position, they haven’t been in the right position my entire pregnancy which is to be expected however by now they were hoping to see that bub would be in the right position. Bub is currently transverse and is always in transverse every time I have my appointments.
They have given me until next Friday for bub to move into the right position, otherwise they will be taking it a bit more seriously. I have done some research and the only options are an ECV or c-section.
The fact that I have an anterior placenta will make it harder for them to do an ECV, and I am not comfortable with the idea of an ECV anyway. It’s where they manually try to move the head and feet of your bub to flip them into place. This can put bub into distress.
It makes me uncomfortable, the thought of it that is. There is an increased risk of needing an emergency c-section with ECV procedures, which I am assuming is due to bub getting distressed. I’d much rather a scheduled c-section than an emergency one.
The thought of a c-section doesn’t scare me, going into labour doesn’t scare me either. I am not entirely sure what part of this whole thing is making me nervous, because when I truly think about the steps that they could take, I am not afraid.
I think what mainly is making me afraid is that bub was measuring 2 weeks behind when we had our appointment last week. I am really uncomfortable since hearing that news. They, again, said that they will wait until next appointment which is next Friday before they take a decent look into things. Leaving that appointment room without any definite answers left me feeling uneasy, as I’m sure you can imagine.
I guess hearing that your baby is measuring two weeks behind doesn’t feel or seem normal to me at all. I really didn’t like being told that we will ‘wait and see’, kind of thing. I carry bub with me all day every day, it isn’t something that I can really put into the back of my mind.
We just have to wait and see what we can do. I hope that bub catches up, and that it isn’t something wrong with my placenta or something. We’ll find out more next Friday, which I will be sure to update you all on.
So to wrap up…
- We are worried we may have our rental house on the market, but hopefully it is just our landlord refinancing.
- The bush fires, Australian government, climate change denial-ists and air pollution sucks.
- Our bub is in the wrong position and is measuring two weeks behind.
That’s where we are at.
Aside from all of this, I am incredibly grateful for everything in my life. I am grateful that my family and friends are happy, healthy and safe. That is all that I keep reminding myself.
I am incredibly grateful thankful for all of the encouragement that I have been receiving on my posts recently. It is fantastic to be able to interact with my new readers, and I have found new blogs that I absolutely love reading.
I reached my goal of 500 followers which is now at 551. How absolutely amazing is that? I am so grateful.
This post is getting insanely long now, so I am going to leave it here. I hope you guys enjoyed me just freestyle blogging and rambling about my life. If you enjoyed a post like this, I may try and do it more often. I like rambling.
Anyway, I hope you all have a wonderful day/night wherever you are and thank you if you got this far!
Let’s hope January brings some good outcomes for all of us.